Tuesday, February 24, 2009

and other fears...

Sometimes you want to pray but...
can't seem to find the right words.

Sometimes you want to ask a question but...
afraid of knowing the answers.

Monday, February 23, 2009

words and meanings...

If you watch Taiwanese idol series,
you'll find that they often describe a not-so-good-looking-socially-awkward girl/boy as
'zhai nu' or 'zhai nan'.

I don't know the exact meaning but I'm watching Rainie's new show
愛就宅一起

And they describe the 'zhai' in 'zhai nu' or 'zhai nan' as

Agoraphobia

Agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder, often precipitated by the fear of having a panic attack in a setting from which there is no easy means of escape. As a result, sufferers of agoraphobia may avoid public and/or unfamiliar places. In severe cases, the sufferer may become confined to his or her home, experiencing difficulty traveling from this "safe place."

OMG!!!
I think I'm slightly agoraphobic.

...mixed with being slightly

Xenophobic - Fear of strangers or foreigners
[ I don't like strangers!!!! =( ]

So I'm...
Agora-Xeno-Phobic

ohhh nooo...
I'm Sick!

I wonder which part of my childhood these phobias came from.




Saturday, February 21, 2009

Friday 9am - 9.15am

Certain events have happened to make me
thankful for my very mundane and borderline existence.
I hope that I will not have to encounter things like that.
At least not any time soon...

So this is a typical (or not) day that I'm grateful for :

Today I found that in panic,
I can actually jump out of bed and make it out the door in 8 mins.
*clap clap*
[as compared to the usual half hour or more...]

But of course I didn't brush my teeth as well as I would have liked.
Had to hold my bladder.
And I wore the semi-dirty clothes from the day before.
*blush*

You see, my class was to start at 9.15am and I woke at 9am.
But due to my super-panic-fast-forward speed, the luck of getting a taxi real quick and NO traffic and plenty of GREEN lights...
I reached at 9.20am.
Wooohoo!

The tired factor came from the night before...
4 people who were trying to save money *roll eyes* *roll eyes* walked into
Singapore's only 24 Hr shopping centre.
MUSTAFA

yeah...

When 12.30am came and it was time to go.
EVERYBODY bought something from there!
Which explains the rolling of eyes.

But when I use the items I bought,
I will remember the happy moments spent with you all!

Therefore,
I'm not only buying things,
I'm buying memories...
[cue to say : 'Waaahhhhh']


**********

To my dear friend,
I can't and don't want to imagine the guilt and degree of heartache you're going through...

Though you have additional worries to bear and heavier responsibilities to cover,
you seem so strong and in control.
I guess it's a choice you have had to make due to circumstances at present.

And you know what,
I've known all along that you're a capable person.
Just that I've never said it to you!
;x

But if at any time,
you feel like you don't want to be strong anymore.
Please let me know ok!


**********

To my other friend : I'm praying.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

JetStar's Lunch time Madness

I am growing mouldy waiting for JetStar Asia's site to load.
There's only another 6mins to book the flight.

When I tried to purchase tickets earlier,
it didn't require my IC number and passport expiry details.
Weird!!
First time I've encountered this.
It feels like a scam.
And then I just went ahead and use debit card details to book and it bounced me back to the passenger details section.
What the...@%$^!!!


I suspect the website is not going to load in time.
I've only got 3mins left...
AAAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!
Crappy!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The sadness is spreading...

Now I think one of the hardest things,
is to be nonchalant when you hear sobs and cries from an old granny.

Today there was some form of closure.



Monday, February 9, 2009

before the day is through...

Things can spiral without warning.
And you find yourself with more questions than answers.
But Life still forges ahead with or without your consent.

At a standstill,
what do we do from here?